Life In The Word Part 7.
Won't God, do it? I asked myself! I have been in a state of limbo and have cried myself to stupor but my perceived reality was obvious, nothing was changing. I had several dreams and God was showing me what to do but I had gone so far calculating my next income based on the new trend of job interviews I was been called for that I completely ignored all the signs, don't get me wrong, I was also looking at all the seemingly obvious documentations that will be required to do what God was showing me so I said to myself; this maybe in the future and maybe it is a vision to show me what I will be setting up for my mum when she retires. My humorous God was watching me from heaven, my stagnation was painful, my pains were real, I lost appetite, I was real, my situation was appalling, I looked like a mirage of my real self, I looked back at my career and it was like it never existed, Oh Father what am I doing in this land? Who sent me here? What on earth made me to resign and come here in the first instance? Am I dreaming or am I gradually slipping into a state of bitterness, am I losing my faith in God? Is my faith little because I am almost fainting in this day of adversity Lord. I severally took my case out on my husband when he seems not to realize that I was completely helpless to my situation, his life was going well and I seemed to be the one drawing us back. Should I return home? Is my place here by my husband's side or am I just in a wrong location? What should I return to? Yes, it took me this long to write down this part. I was trying to curtail my excitement and amazement at this God of multiple chances! Now it seemed like it was not same me that have attempted to commit suicide, I had only one restrain - judgement because I have been opportune to see what it looks like to go to hell through an express ticket (self-suicide in whatever means through overdose, unrighteous living, and so on). I had no duplicate life so I asked for grace, meanwhile i have told several people that suicide is a demonic spirit and nobody with their normal senses will commit suicide, same thing with depression, it is a state of ungratefulness that affects the person's health to a level of medical intervention, these things do not happen in a day, its gradual. If not checked you may think you are okay and just experiencing some situations, no, you are gradually blaming Almighty God for your woes and forgetting His many mercies. Thank God, we put a check to it, we were aware that we were battling an opposition who is not a gentleman and every time I am weak, my husband will stand strong! I tried to reason my way through what I could possible do, I had no money nor any means to carry out anything and even if I were to get help from my mum, she would tell my husband about it and not help me out because of her relationship with my husband. I still smile to think that she is my mum first before she became his mother in-law, but I thank Almighty God for His guide and making my mum who she is and still working through her for perfection. Why all these stories? No worries, God can? Really? If you don't believe God can, why are you even serving Him? Why do you believe the things you hear, see and feel? Why don't you decide to ignore what you call reality and believe God's word? It's too mind boggling? See exactly what I did eventually! Bishop David O. Oyedepo said in one of His sermons that we should ask Almighty God why our situation refused to change and listen to hear His response. I laughed because I said sir, you do not know what I am going through, don't I serve God in several capacities and units? God has done everything else but given me a job in several years. I have no means of livelihood except my husbands’ salary and we had bills to pay. We couldn't afford to buy clothes for ourselves and we had siblings in universities looking up for assistance, we were living from hand to mouth, we were actively serving and winning souls, yet? We were willing and obedient I thought! Then that night God reminded me of the first day I stepped into this land, He took me through my journey all these years and how He at different intervals had showed Himself faithful to me and my family. He showed me every point that I refused to heed His instructions on what He wanted me to do and how I have prolonged my answers by willful disobedience. I looked at the video of my life and felt sorry for myself, I was laboring so hard but on a dry land like a desert and heading further into more dry lands with my husband with a pregnancy with no hope of an end in a dream. God told me right there in the dream that I could return to my starting point and do as He had told me to do, His ways will be easier because it has His backing but I must be patient to let Him work while I obey and follow. I will rest in Him but flourish like a tree planted by the rivers that bears fruits in due season not a dry land anymore. Guess what was next? Answers, but you want to know what was my answers? It was not, take millions in cash/check nor something I was expecting. God asked me to humble myself under His very mighty hand and be lifted/built up. He gave me an assignment (job), that I will rather stay put than do. He told me a fee I must not exceed but I eventually still gave a discount on. I was more than ready to obey than to count my fingers at this point, I learnt humility, patience and more obedience through these experiences. I now knew why we must keep learning at Jesus feet till we see Him in Heaven. There is so much to learn if our hearts are opened. I thought at a point I was really up to a lot of situations till this mountain stood in my part for close to 5 years over. It was like a joke, then a wait that turned into a mockery, to the extent that some people were out of their concern giving us used wares for my glorious heritage, I was drawn to tears thinking so it’s this obvious that we are barely able to cloth ourselves? My husband will just look at me and try to encourage me that many people have been through whatever we are going through and came out victorious. This amazing God held me up once I made up my mind to obey no matter what to get my desired outcome. The last two days to the end of last year, the devil struck hard at me but thank God, I was ready for him, God pulled me through and few days into the new year, my life started to transform, every little thing I touched became gold. I began to receive favor left and right. Even as I was just recovering from the attacks, I joined in the 21 days fasting and prayers. God is awesome, His ways are past finding out! Today, I look back and I give Almighty God glory, I look forward and I am so confidence in Him that He that has begun this good works in my life is able and capable of greater glorious things. Reflection: Look back at anything God has done for you in the past apart from the gift of life and the breath you breathe right now. Look for some papers you have written in past services (Shiloh, special services and so on), and begin to look through and tick the ones God answered and how long it took and how He answered you. Seat in a very quiet place and look at when you were going through them, what human support did you get? What was your focus on? What input did you add to warrant the answers you got? What did you do differently? It will amaze you that if you are sincere with yourself like I did, I completely doubted all my doubts when I saw that I was at the break of doubting God, to be sure that I was not losing my mind (intellect), I started unlocking my heart with these reflections and joy overflowed my spirit man again! I became thankful for my many blessings and my heavens opened, never you allow the devil shift you from beneath (it means you still think you are under opened heavens but you have been covered with a veil and the blessings are not touching base). This is a camouflage and if a believer operates in a stagnant state for a very long time, the bible said everything of long continuance is evil, it means evil has taken over that person's life, evil is from the devil not from God. We must beware of the devil's many vices and watch & pray brethren. Get your joy back because it is with it you must draw from the well of salvation. Matthew 19:26; the "with" means partnership, so it therefore says if you partner this cause with man it will be impossible but partner with Almighty God and this will be possible! Glory to God!
Task: Get out a paper and write down what is the issue in your life. Get a second sheet, write out how long it has been and what solutions you have seeked concerning it (examples like fasting, prayers, gone to see the pastor for prayer of agreements, took Shiloh sacrifice to God, gone out for evangelism, paid your tithes consistently, serving in your church, pay your offerings joyfully etc). Get a third sheet and write down what was answered and what has remained unanswered, note that this part is not about the devil, it’s about "willingness and obedience" on your part and God's ability to come through for His own! Now God's ability is never in question but sometimes we ignore divine directions and think maybe its futuristic or not yet time to do what God says; "Now!" Or we may be looking at all obvious situations that does not align with what God is saying; "it’s like God says by this time tomorrow Joseph becomes prime minister of Egypt and you say no it can't be, he is a prisoner with no citizenship of Egypt and by the way, it has never happened before in history so it's not possible, what God is saying doesn't need to sound like your country of residence laws because He is supernatural and can do all things, why are you worried for what God says He will do?!"
Now, give thanks to God and ask Almighty God to tell you why this issue has remained unanswered despite all your efforts to resolve it? Listen for His voice (whether dreams, open visions, through messages from the altar during services on Sundays/Wednesdays and so on), He will speak to you in ways He usually communicate with you. If you have never heard God since you became born again please you need baptism in the Holy Ghost after water baptism by immersion, because you cannot serve God and you speak and you do not hear from Him.
Prayer: Almighty and ever faithful God, you said in your word that if we are willing and obedient, we will eat the good of the land (whatever land we find ourselves), so today I come before you and ask that you show me wherever I have missed it, so that I can retrace my steps and be planted in your will and perfect plan for my life in Jesus Name Amen.
Next .................................Grace Grace Grace I am important/valued to/by my creator!
Jesus is Lord and All Glory to Almighty God!
Task: Get out a paper and write down what is the issue in your life. Get a second sheet, write out how long it has been and what solutions you have seeked concerning it (examples like fasting, prayers, gone to see the pastor for prayer of agreements, took Shiloh sacrifice to God, gone out for evangelism, paid your tithes consistently, serving in your church, pay your offerings joyfully etc). Get a third sheet and write down what was answered and what has remained unanswered, note that this part is not about the devil, it’s about "willingness and obedience" on your part and God's ability to come through for His own! Now God's ability is never in question but sometimes we ignore divine directions and think maybe its futuristic or not yet time to do what God says; "Now!" Or we may be looking at all obvious situations that does not align with what God is saying; "it’s like God says by this time tomorrow Joseph becomes prime minister of Egypt and you say no it can't be, he is a prisoner with no citizenship of Egypt and by the way, it has never happened before in history so it's not possible, what God is saying doesn't need to sound like your country of residence laws because He is supernatural and can do all things, why are you worried for what God says He will do?!"
Now, give thanks to God and ask Almighty God to tell you why this issue has remained unanswered despite all your efforts to resolve it? Listen for His voice (whether dreams, open visions, through messages from the altar during services on Sundays/Wednesdays and so on), He will speak to you in ways He usually communicate with you. If you have never heard God since you became born again please you need baptism in the Holy Ghost after water baptism by immersion, because you cannot serve God and you speak and you do not hear from Him.
Prayer: Almighty and ever faithful God, you said in your word that if we are willing and obedient, we will eat the good of the land (whatever land we find ourselves), so today I come before you and ask that you show me wherever I have missed it, so that I can retrace my steps and be planted in your will and perfect plan for my life in Jesus Name Amen.
Next .................................Grace Grace Grace I am important/valued to/by my creator!
Jesus is Lord and All Glory to Almighty God!
